People's Exhibit 195G & 196G

 

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RECORDED PHONE CONVERSATION BETWEEN AMBER FREY AND SCOTT PETERSON:
January 1, 2003 at 0001 hours
 

 

FREY:                    Phone ringing.  (beepHappy New Year’s.

PETERSON:           Happy New Year.

 

FREY:                    I just stepped out of the room cause it’s so loud and crazy and I

                              thought, you know, you’re gonna…I knew you’d be calling and I

                              was like I didn’t want to be in the middle of that cause I would not

                              be able to hear you.

                 
PETERSON:           Oh, that’s…that’s kinda sad that you’re not jumping up and down

                              and doing…

 

FREY:                    Oh, it is insane.  I didn’t think Shawn’s party was gonna be so

                              insane because she’s always gonna be claiming there’s not gonna

                              be that many people.  And they’re singing karaoke and I was like

                              oh, my God!  So uh…how are you?

 

PETERSON:           I’m tired, but I’m glad to be talking to you on New Year’s.

FREY:                    So tell me, what is your New Year’s resolution?

PETERSON:           Oh, I didn’t even think of one.

 

FREY:                    You didn't think of one?
 

PETERSON:           Nope.  It’s only been 9 hours since we’ve talked.

 

FREY:                    You had 9 hours to think of one.

PETERSON:           I did huh?  I didn’t think of one.

 

FREY:                    Nothing, huh?

PETERSON:           And did you sing some karaoke?

 

FREY:                    Oh, there were some Luis Miguel or what is his name, I don’t know,

                              they’re just some songs.  I kept telling ‘em they weren’t good so I

                              haven’t looked at the…I haven’t really looked at the karaoke

                              category, but uh…(clears throat)

 

PETERSON:           Miguel?

 

 

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FREY:                    So…well, Ayianna’s asleep.  She is with Diana tonight, my mom

                              had to work so…

 

PETERSON:           Hum! ________

 

FREY:                    I was able to you know, I wasn’t sure if I was even gonna go to

                              Shawn’s tonight cause of her…because of my sister working so…

                             

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    So anyway uh…

 

PETERSON:           Well, wait a minute now.  What did you sing?

 

FREY:                    If I could I would…I don’t know what the name…I don’t know who

                              sings that.  If I could I would…

 

PETERSON:           Oh, yeah.

 

FREY:                    something with you tonight.

 

PETERSON:           Did you do good?

 

FREY:                    Huh?

 

PETERSON:           Did you do good?

 

FREY:                    Yes, but I had my hand over Shawn’s mouth the whole time

                              because she did very bad (laugh)

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    Um…but I was thinking gosh, I’ll look at it and I’ll see what…I

                              haven’t looked at all the songs yet so I was thinking I might, you

                              know, find Islands in the Stream or something for my first debut.

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    Um…but so you would not believe how much Ayianna has talked this

                              week.  She’s saying like two or three sentences.

 

PETERSON:           Wow! ____________________

 

 

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FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           The things kids just start doing it all of a sudden?

 

FREY:                    I couldn’t hear you, what?

 

PETERSON:           Did she just start going that all of a sudden?

 

FREY:                    Yeah, she’s saying my…

 

PETERSON:           Just like full sentences?

 

FREY:                    Four-word sentences like, “Mama, I’m all done.”  She says “mama”

                              now and she’ll say, “I’m not done.”  And just…

 

PETERSON:           Wow!

 

FREY:                    …it’s incredible the words she’s saying.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, my God, that’s great.

 

FREY:                    Didn’t I tell you?  It’s like by the time you come back from Paris,

                              she’ll be talking in full sentences and um…and uh…reading…or,

                              you know, potty trained and all that.  Do you remember when I told

                              you that?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, a totally different little…

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           A completely different little one.

 

FREY:                    Yes.  So she’s…it’s just amazing to me this whole week she’s been

                              so talk…verbal and talking and I’m just like amazed at her

                              vocabulary.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah. ________

 

FREY:                    It is.  It’s…it’s like every time I’m just like ah, I wish somebody was

                              here to hear that, you know, except, you know, aside from myself.

 

 

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PETERSON:           ____________ I bet.

 

FREY:                    Oh, it’s just really…yeah, it is.  So…so and then somebody had

                              asked about my birthday and what I was doing.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And I said I didn’t know so you’ll be back by then, right?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum (affirmative).

 

FREY:                    So what are you…what do you think you want to do?  What do you

                              want to do on my birthday?

 

PETERSON:           Well, something good.

 

FREY:                    Something what?

 

PETERSON:           Good.

 

FREY:                    Something good?  So are we gonna do the Napa Valley when you

                              come back?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    …never done anything like that so…or been to, you know, a place

                              to do that.  I’ve been, you know, to massages of course, but that’s

                              my extent of being pampered.  (laugh)

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, there’s a lot of things we’re gonna to do together.

 

FREY:                    That would be fun.  I’m looking forward to those days.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.  Well, do you have a resolution?

 

FREY:                    I do actually.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    Would you like to hear it?

 

PETERSON:           Do you want to share it?

 

 

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FREY:                    Yeah, I would like to share with you.  My New Year’s resolution

                              is…and actually I thought of one for you.  Which one do you want

                              me to share first?

 

PETERSON:           Um…give me mine first.

 

FREY:                    Yours first?  My New Year’s resolution for you would be to not

                              travel so much.

 

PETERSON:           Oh!

 

FREY:                    And spend more time with me and Ayianna.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    What do you think of that?  Was that a…was that something on

                              your mind or anywhere close?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, yeah, definitely it’s on my mind for a long time.

 

FREY:                    For a long time?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.  Well, it’s been long huh?

 

FREY:                    I know.  It hasn’t been too long, but certainly…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    I don’t even want to think about…

 

PETERSON:           _______________

 

FREY:                    I don’t even want to think of how long it’s been cause it’s already

                              been too long.  Um…but my New Year’s resolution…

 

PETERSON:           Please, yeah, tell me?

 

FREY:                    …is to just…first and foremost is just, you know, to build my

                              business.  And uh…second would have to be just, you know,

                              maintaining my health and, you know, focusing on what I need to

                              do um…and just, you know, just really, you know, keep focusing on

                              that.  And um...you know, as well as with my church, you know,

                              God, there’s so much…so many things I want to talk to you about.

                              I don’t know…do you have time?  Are you…?

 

 

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PETERSON:           Yeah, of course.

 

FREY:                    (clears throat)  Well, I just um…this Saturday at church was just so

                              awesome, Scott, that (sigh) it was something I really needed, you

                              know, for…for the sermon to talk about because I was just, you

                              know, having a hard time with you and what we had talked about

                              um…before you left to go do Paris.  Do you remember that?

 

PETERSON:           Trust?

 

FREY:                    Yes.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And uh…it…the whole sermon was so much on that and I made a

                              request, you know, to talk to the pastor about…about that, that I

                              had, you know, just to talk about, you know, freeing myself basically

                              of this battle I have in my head from things and…and…

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    (clears throat)…and so, you know, Sunday was really good for me

                              and really eased…eased myself about a lot of things and, you

                              know; just to really put that out to God.  And…and uh…so it was

                              good, it was a good…a good Sunday for me.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-huh.

 

FREY:                    But, you know, I just miss you so much and, you know, I was

                              thinking, you know, you’ve heard that expression how um…oh,

                              what is it?  My mind just totally went blank about the expression

                              about how the, you know, that absence makes the heart grow

                              fonder?

 

PETERSON:           Right, right.

 

FREY:                    And uh…you know, I’ve really been thinking about that because

                              that’s been…you know, people have said that so many times and

                              it’s hard for me to understand that.  And it’s just amazing and

                              incredible how, you know, that’s so true cause I just…I miss you so

                              much and I just wish you were here and, you know, I could be with

                              you.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

 

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FREY:                    And it’s just, you know, I’m just waiting anticipating the day that I

                              get to, you know, see you again.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, how sweet!  Thank you.  I feel the same, obviously, you know,

                              that.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           Obviously I feel the same.  I felt that the day I had to drive away

                              and go on this trip.

 

FREY:                    You know, I…

 

PETERSON:           Amber?

 

FREY:                    Yes, I’m here.

 

PETERSON:           Okay.

 

FREY:                    And I keep…I keep feeling like I…you know, I wish I would have,

                              you know, verbalized more to you before you had left about how I

                              felt about you and everything and that bothers me because…

 

PETERSON:           Oh, it shouldn’t.

 

FREY:                    Why?  I mean it shouldn’t?

 

PETERSON:           Well, I think it’s understood.

 

FREY:                    It’s understood?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, and I don’t think you have to say it, you know, you shouldn’t

                              let it bother you.

 

FREY:                    Well, it bother me because, you know, I’m not gonna see you for

                              So long and (sigh) and, you know, to have all these feelings bottled

                              Up is just so hard for me not to be able to express them cause…

 

PETERSON:           Oh!

 

FREY:                    …you know, because phone calls…you know, at the same time,

                              you know, I had said to you obviously if I don’t get to see you, if I

                              could talk to you everyday it would mean so much cause I can’t see

                              you.  (clears throat)  But at the same time, you know, phone calls

                              are personable to a point.

 

 

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PETERSON:           Right.

 

FREY:                    But yet are, you know, an open door to communication of course

                              but

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    …but it’s just, you know, just that the feelings that I have and have

                              experienced that, you know, we talk about and everything just…it’s

                              so hard that I’m not gonna see you for what is it, I don’t even know

                              when you’re coming back.

 

PETERSON:           And well, it’s less than a month now.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           Less than a month now.

 

FREY:                    Less than a month?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.  It’s better for me at least.

 

FREY:                    It’s better for you?

 

PETERSON:           Well, it’s, you know, kinda _______.  We’ve gone through, you

                              know, many days without seeing each other so we’re knocking

                              down the days.

 

FREY:                    Well, yeah, the days are getting…you know, it’s getting closer,

                              right?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, of course.

 

FREY:                    So…(clears throat) I know you had said before you’ll be back, you

                              know, by my birthday so…

 

PETERSON:           Well yeah.

 

FREY:                    …anticipating plans for…plan for it.  Do you have anything in mind?

 

PETERSON:           For your birthday?

 

FREY:                    Yeah.

 

PETERSON:           I know I’ll have to come up with something good.

 

 

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FREY:                    You have to…you haven’t came up with anything then?

 

PETERSON:           I want to.  Well, kicking around ideas.

 

FREY:                    What?  Share them with me?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, no.  I’m thinking it will be a surprise.

 

FREY:                    So what about that one?

 

PETERSON:           The big idea it will be a surprise of some sort.

 

FREY:                    A surprise?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And so then what about Valentine’s around the corner?

 

PETERSON:           Hum, true, huh?

 

FREY:                    That’s…is that gonna be overwhelming for you?  (laugh)  They’re

                              so close together.

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)  Yeah, that’s okay.  Hey, at least _____

 

FREY:                    Huh?

 

PETERSON:           It’s fun, huh?

 

FREY:                    It’s fun?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    Yeah.  And then in 6 days later, Ayianna.  Man, I haven’t thought

                              about that.  What should we do for Ayianna’s birthday party?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, I don’t know.

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           Um…something fun with all the kids.

 

FREY:                    Well, last year I had everybody over to the house.  Do you think I

                              should have everybody just come to my house again and just have

                              a party?

 

 

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PETERSON:           Yeah, and it’s very cold ___________

 

FREY:                    No, it’s not actually.  It was very nice on her birthday last year.

                              There was actually even a rainbow.

 

PETERSON:           Really?

 

FREY:                    And I saw a rainbow the other day too.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah?

 

FREY:                    Yeah.  I was all excited.  There’s a rainbow.  Ayianna, look, there’s

                              a rainbow.  Um…

 

PETERSON:           Rainbows and butterflies, huh?

 

FREY:                    Rainbows and butterflies.  So how would you feel about meeting

                              Ayianna’s grandparents?

 

PETERSON:           That would be incredible.  I mean why would I…?

 

FREY:                    I mean not my parents, Ayianna’s…her father’s grandparents?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, of course.  I mean ____________

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           Of course I’d be interested in meeting them.

 

FREY:                    So you’d be okay…you would be okay…

 

PETERSON:           There’s nothing weird about that or anything.

 

FREY:                    You’d be comfortable with being, you know, there because they’ll

                              be at the party.  They were there last year.  They brought the cake

                              and the piñata.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.  Well, I think so.  I hope so.

 

FREY:                    You’d be okay?

 

PETERSON:           I can’t think of any reason why I wouldn’t be.

 

 

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FREY:                    Cause I know the type of people that they are, they would be very,

                              you know, loving and open, you know, open to you and, you know,

                              that…that they would be okay as far as I was, you know, I was just

                              worried about how you felt about that?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I would have to think that I would welcome it?

 

FREY:                    Good.

 

PETERSON:           And I obviously can’t say that I have some weird subconscious

                              feeling or something, but I can’t think about it right now, that it

                              would seem strange to me in the least so that’s great.

 

FREY:                    Well, that’s good.  You know, I’m just…cause like I said how they

                              are, you know, they’re very open and loving and so it’s good to

                              know, that that means a lot to me.

 

PETERSON:           _____

 

FREY:                    So no New Year’s resolutions, huh?

 

PETERSON:           What’s that?  Oh, my New Year’s resolution?

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I can’t…I still have to think of one, huh?  Didn’t happen.

 

FREY:                    You can’t think of…you can’t think of anything just from the top of

                              your head?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, I’m sure there’s all kinds of things that I want to do better about

                              myself.  But um…hum I’ve got nothing.

 

FREY:                    You’ve got nothing?

 

PETERSON:           I can’t think of nothing right now off the top of my head.

 

FREY:                    Hum!  (clears throat).

 

PETERSON:           I should have a resolution every day, huh?

 

FREY:                    You know I actually…I just came across…remember when I was

                              telling you about school and how we had to write down five things

                              about what we were grateful for?

 

PETERSON:           I…

 

 

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FREY:                    Cause I know the type of people that they are, they would be very,

                              you know, loving and open, you know, open to you and, you know,

                              that…that they would be okay as far as I was, you know, I was just

                              worried about how you felt about that?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I would have to think that I would welcome it?

 

FREY:                    Good.

 

PETERSON:           And I obviously can’t say that I have some weird subconscious

                              feeling or something, but I can’t think about it right now, that it

                              would seem strange to me in the least so that’s great.

 

FREY:                    Well, that’s good.  You know, I’m just…cause like I said how they

                              are, you know, they’re very open and loving and so it’s good to

                              know, that that means a lot to me.

 

PETERSON:           _____

 

FREY:                    So no New Year’s resolutions, huh?

 

PETERSON:           What’s that?  Oh, my New Year’s resolution?

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I can’t…I still have to think of one, huh?  Didn’t happen.

 

FREY:                    You can’t think of…you can’t think of anything just from the top of

                              your head?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, I’m sure there’s all kinds of things that I want to do better about

                              myself.  But um…hum I’ve got nothing.

 

FREY:                    You’ve got nothing?

 

PETERSON:           I can’t think of nothing right now off the top of my head.

 

FREY:                    Hum!  (clears throat).

 

PETERSON:           I should have a resolution every day, huh?

 

FREY:                    You know I actually…I just came across…remember when I was

                              telling you about school and how we had to write down five things

                              about what we were grateful for?

 

PETERSON:           I…

 

 

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FREY:                    I just found those and was reading them and they just totally made

                              me cry because I was thinking…

 

PETERSON:           Oh, how sweet!

 

FREY:                    They were just so…I mean even to this day things I’m thankful for.

                              and I for whatever reason I was thinking there was some stupid

                              things in there.  I think…remember when I…did I…did I mention

                              that before when I talked to you about this?

 

PETERSON:           The five things?

 

FREY:                    That there were stupid things in there probably that I added in?

 

PETERSON:           Um…yeah, I think you did, but they weren’t?

 

FREY:                    You know what, they weren’t.  They were all so good.  And actually

                              it was right around this time.  That’s why she had us write ‘em

                              cause it right around the new year.  And I found them, I was going

                              through a box of papers and…and it…(clears throat) I found…it

                              was rolled up and it was tied in a gold ribbon and I found it and I

                              pulled it out and I re-read them and I was just crying reading them

                              cause of things I had to be thankful for.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.  You knew that I knew…

 

FREY:                    Huh?

 

PETERSON:           I know you knew that there were not stupid things in there because

                              simply it was you that was making that list.

 

FREY:                    Cause it was me making the list?

 

PETERSON:           And how thoughtful you are.  And all the smallest things _____ an

                              opportunity like that. _________

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           Do you want to talk to me about them?

 

FREY:                    Oh, I don’t…I don’t have ‘em in front of me and…

 

PETERSON:           Okay.

 

FREY:                    …I’d have to rephrase them but…

 

 

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PETERSON:           Well, we can talk about them some time, huh?

 

FREY:                    So did you have a chance to write me?

 

PETERSON:           I have a postcard.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           A postcard, yes.

 

FREY:                    Oh, you did?

 

PETERSON:           And I started on a letter.

 

FREY:                    That would be so wonderful.

 

PETERSON:           And I’m finding it hard.

 

FREY:                    Why?

 

PETERSON:           Just uh…so many possible topics.

 

FREY:                    Well, you just narrow it down to one and write about it and whatever

                              comes to mind.  I mean anything you write…

 

PETERSON:           I know it’s hard for me.

 

FREY:                    Scott?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    Why do you find it so hard to talk to me about these things?  You

                              say, you know, you…you know, when I talked to you um…on

                              Saturday you were saying that there’s so many things you thought

                              about…about us, but you haven’t shared them with me.  Why can’t

                              you share them to me on the phone?

 

PETERSON:           Um…I don’t think there’s anything stopping me from sharing them

                              with you on the phone.  I don’t know there’s, you know, just

                              um…just thoughts about mostly the future.  This is a guy thing, I

                              guess with me and I know if that…

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           I don’t know, I mean just possibilities, you know, in the future where

                              we want to go and who we want to be, together and…

 

 

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FREY:                    So what do you want to be together with me?

 

PETERSON:           Well, I mean obviously my, you know, my thoughts are that I think

                              that we, you know, would be wonderful together.

 

FREY:                    I know.  But you haven’t elaborated on that.  That doesn’t really say

                              everything that I need to hear.

 

PETERSON:           Well, I was hoping that nonverbally it’s difficult over the phone

                              obviously, you know, how I felt about you.

 

FREY:                    You can’t assume your own life, Scott.

 

PETERSON:           What’s that?

 

FREY:                    Like I said I can’t assume anything in life.  I mean I’m very, you

                              know, I need to hear things as well as, you know, I, you know,

                              seeing and hearing is such a great, you know, thing for me.  I mean

                              I need to hear that.  You know, I’m the type of person I need to

                              hear, you know.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And so…

 

PETERSON:           You know, in my mind we could be wonderful together and I

                              could…I could care for you in any and every way.  For the rest of

                              our lives I think we care for each other and Ayianna and, you know,

                              we could fulfill each other.

 

FREY:                    What...and Ayianna what?

 

PETERSON:           We…we together could care for her and, you know, and raise

                              Ayianna.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           And we could fulfill each other, you know, forever.

 

FREY:                    That would be…

 

PETERSON:           That’s what’s in my mind.  You know, and obviously there are some

                              questions from points that may be of contention between us.

 

FREY:                    Like what?

 

 

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PETERSON:           Um…uh…there’s uh…obviously you um…in a religious aspect.

                              You enjoy going to church and have that faith and I don’t.  Um…

 

FREY:                    What don’t you…?

 

PETERSON:           And I’ve never gone to church.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           And like I’ve never gone to church much.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           And would that be uh…a, you know, contentious point for you.  And

                              would we see eye to eye on a lot of raising Ayianna and how, you

                              know, would you accept our role of growing together and doing

                              that.  You know, those and I can’t think of other, but those are

                              major, you know, thoughts ____________

 

FREY:                    Well, we haven’t…

 

PETERSON:           And the fact that you want another child.

 

FREY:                    Right.

 

PETERSON:           And the small things that we have to discuss.

 

FREY:                    Which you don’t?  Do you still feel that you’re very adamant about

                              not having another child?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, I wouldn’t say adamant, but it’s not in my

                              thoughts________currently.

 

FREY:                    Well, like I said that’s something, you know, you may change you

                              mind in the future, but that’s not something, you know, this next

                              year coming that I could see happening.  And I don’t think I’m ready

                              for that.  And I want to enjoy, you know, Ayianna and where she’s

                              at and experience that.  And, you know, like you said before

                              assuming we were together that I could enjoy being with you and

                              Ayianna.  And, you know, and if that came…but you know, one

                              thing I never said is I had talked about this with another friend

                              earlier this year.  Well, now, next, um…that I definitely met

                              someone that didn’t want to have children, I would find contentness

                              in that if all my needs were met and Ayianna’s needs were met then

                              certainly I would find contentness in that and that I’d be okay not

                              having another child.

 

 

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PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    You know, I can’t really ask for anything more than that.

 

PETERSON:           There’s so many things that we need to learn about, you know,

                              each other.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           You know, and on the one hand, you know, I think we have a

                              connection about my, you know, 95 percent of me that I guess the

                              romantic and diehard just see wonderful possibilities.

                              Unfortunately, you know, 5 percent of me, you know, has

                              questions.

 

FREY:                    About what?

 

PETERSON:           Uh…about how we fit together parenting with, you know, our ideas

                              on what you said needs versus wants and where, you know, two

                              people take care of each other’s needs versus wants and desires

                              and um…and not just where people and how they work in a

                              relationship.

 

FREY:                    Yes, of course.

 

PETERSON:           You know, and how these questions of, you know, going to church

                              and not going to church (beep)

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           ___________ And things you get answered and where you get

                              along the…(beep) the scale of where, you know, of who does what.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           And it’s unfortunate…(beep) that 5 percent working hard in a

                              relationship and more than 95 percent of, you know, like wow,

                              (beep) beautiful thing.

 

FREY:                    That 5 percent is such a small portion though, Scott, that like I

                              said

 

PETERSON:           I know it.

 

 

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FREY:                    …relationships are constant on change and dealing with that and

                              accepting and, you know, (sigh) it’s…it’s not always, you know,

                              (beep) it’s not always something that’s so…(sigh) always 100

                              percent, you know, or 100 percent happy all the time.  I mean

                              there’s down (beep) so is that part of that 5 percent that you’re

                              talking about?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, I’m sorry…(beep)

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           Well, I’m just saying that, you know, I don’t want to say innate, it’s

                              not innate but it is…(beep, beep, beep), you know, how we relate to

                              someone as a spouse.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           Based on, you know, our life experiences and if we spend enough

                              time together to see how that is.

 

FREY:                    So how…how long do you think it would take between you and I

                              before we figured that out?

 

PETERSON:           Well I don’t know, sweetie.  You know, we…we learn so much

                              every day that we get to spend together and it hasn’t been that

                              long.

 

FREY:                    No it hasn’t.

 

PETERSON:           But, you know, there’s that other huge portion that on the other side

                              of love and caring and everything that can be established and so

                              quickly and this is, you know, so strong.

 

FREY:                    What’s so strong?

 

PETERSON:           That side of it.  And there’s loving and caring and the connection,

                              the energy.

 

FREY:                    So where do you feel you’re at with me at this point?

 

PETERSON:           The loving and caring and the energy, that’s I mean that’s only

                              growing and wonderful.

 

FREY:                    Like I said I’ve just…

 

 

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PETERSON:           I don’t want to take this discussion and I think, you know, we’re

                              focusing too much on…I just…you asked my thoughts.

 

FREY:                    I know.

 

PETERSON:           You know, and I have to tell you exactly the way I feel, you know,

                              how much my thoughts of how I wish I was with her, you know, and

                              I want to spend time with Amber and Ayianna or, you know,

                              everything from just because of your soft words to laugh with the

                              two of you, to see Ayianna string her words together, you know,

                              spending

 

FREY:                    I didn’t…and…

 

PETERSON:           What’s that?

 

FREY:                    I didn’t hear the last thing you said?

 

PETERSON:           To hear Ayianna put her words together in a sentence, you know,

                              small wonderful things to and see you do your hair or try to wash

                              your hair in the shower or you know, just, you know, taking you girls

                              out somewhere, you know, or picking Ayianna up and, you know

                              bringing you a glass or orange juice or the paper to bed in the

                              morning.  Um…all those things are so much in my thoughts.  And…

 

FREY:                    Do you even know when you’re coming back.

 

PETERSON:           Well, I’m trying to schedule for the 25th.

 

FREY:                    Is when?

 

PETERSON:           And then the 25th.

 

FREY:                    Okay.

 

PETERSON:           And then I go to Guadalajara.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           …the 28th through the 2nd.

 

FREY:                    You’re gonna be in Guadalajara?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    That’s where my Marses is from.

 

 

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PETERSON:           Who’s that?

 

FREY:                    Marses.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, yeah.

 

FREY:                    I talked about him I think a couple or several times, yeah.  He’s

                              from Guadalajara.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    Oh, no, no, no, I take that back.  Guadahuerto, I take that back,

                              Guadaherto. (laugh)

 

PETERSON:           Oh!

 

FREY:                    It’s close…close to Guadalajara, I don’t know on the map but…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    So what are you gonna do there?

 

PETERSON:           They just have meetings down there.

 

FREY:                    And then you don’t know how long those are gonna be?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, usually the 28th through the 2nd .

 

FREY:                    Of February?

 

PETERSON:           Of January, the 2nd of February, yeah.

 

FREY:                    Right.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And then…excuse me.

 

PETERSON:           And when I get back I don’t have any…

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           …travel.  When I get back I don’t have any travel scheduled after

                              that.

 

FREY:                    So does that mean you and I will be able to spend time together?

 

 

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PETERSON:           Yeah, that would be nice.

 

FREY:                    And you won’t be having to take off?

 

PETERSON:           Right.

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           Right.

 

FREY:                    I don’t know…I don’t know how, you know, that’s something

                              certainly for me to look forward to.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.  And what we need to do sweetheart is not analyze our

                              relationship.

 

FREY:                    Is what?

 

PETERSON:           Not analyze our relationship.

 

FREY:                    I’m not analy…I’m just…

 

PETERSON:           You know what I mean?

 

FREY:                    No, we really haven’t…

 

PETERSON:           We just need to spend time together and let it…and let it grow.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           You know, and foster and, you know, what we do and, you know,

                              obviously talk about things..

 

FREY:                    Right.

 

PETERSON:           …as they come.  But I mean sitting down and analyzing it is not

                              uh

 

FREY:                    Do you think that…

 

PETERSON:           …it’s not the love affair that, you know, we should have.

 

FREY:                    Do you feel that that’s what…I mean I don’t feel that…

 

PETERSON:           Maybe I’m too romantic that way, I don’t know.

 

 

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FREY:                    I don’t think that we have been analyzing our relationship.

 

PETERSON:           No, we haven’t been at all.

 

FREY:                    But just, you know, I guess finding our…for me anyway, just finding

                              those guidelines or those boundaries that we have because, you

                              know, like I said before when I asked you is there anybody else,

                              you know, you know what was your response?

 

PETERSON:           With you I am so happy that, no.

 

FREY:                    No, there is nobody else.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And that…

 

PETERSON:           You know, but even that, I can ______ you with that.

 

FREY:                    Well, I…I wanted…

 

PETERSON:           And you didn’t have to ask and…

 

FREY:                    But I had to hear it.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.  Yeah, and I…I know…well, I mean like I don’t know, but I

                              don’t have to ask that of you.  Um…you know, I just…I just want to

                              flow together.  And I don’t need a…a title with you or, you know,

                              commitment from you.  I just feel that…

 

FREY:                    Feel what?

 

PETERSON:           What’s that?

 

FREY:                    Oh, I thought you…you feel…you just feel that that’s there?

 

PETERSON:           No, no, I just feel from you the caring and the compassion…the

                              compassion and enough commitment from you to me.  You know, I

                              would never have to ask.  I am confident enough.

 

FREY:                    Not to…?

 

PETERSON:           But that’s just me.  I mean not analyzing, not to ask, you know, you

                              oh, what are you looking for from me or…and it’s just gonna…it’s

                              gonna flow naturally.

 

FREY:                    I understand.

 

 

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PETERSON:           And it has and it will.

 

FREY:                    I understand.  I do.

 

PETERSON:           That’s a beautiful thing to happen.  And you ask me, you know, for

                              how long?

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           And I don’t know a timetable to uh…at least I hope there’s not…not

                              ___ or blossoming relationship with us.  You know, it happens…it

                              just needs to be naturally.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, and you need…

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           And you…and you need a timetable.

 

FREY:                    I what?

 

PETERSON:           Like an immediate timetable?

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           I can’t give you one.  I’ll just, you know, come and finally we’ll

                              know.  That’s all I can say.

 

FREY:                    Scott?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    It has been so wonderful to be able to finally talk to you.

 

PETERSON:           It is nice.

 

FREY:                    You know, I told you before you could call me anytime.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    You know, if your days are busy and you’re, you know, involved

                              with your meetings about numbers and finances…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, ______

 

 

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FREY:                    You know, is the only time you can find is now or, you know, later

                              call me.  I mean that’s almost even a better time because Ayianna’s

                              asleep and I’m not having to fuss with her.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And, you know, so…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, that’s true.

 

FREY:                    You know, so please keep that in mind that you could call me

                              anytime.  You know, if I’m in…if I’m in a session of course my

                              phone will be off, but you can leave me a message.  I always enjoy,

                              you know, hearing from you.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I always do.  I always do _____ I could call you and leave a

                              message, huh?

 

FREY:                    When I call?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    Yeah.  Did you get my messages?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I heard one.

 

FREY:                    Yeah.  Is that the one about not going to San Francisco because

                              Denise has to breastfeed?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    I’m like, “Oh my God, Denise, are you kidding me?”  She’s

                              like…she’s like, “Well, I can’t.  I just…I want to, but I can’t.  I mean

                              it’s just…”  And Gurmella finally called me today, can you believe

                              that?

 

PETERSON:           Ha-ha-ha (laugh)

 

FREY:                    He did not call me and the last time I talked to him was on Friday

                              when I went to his work and he said we were definitely going to

                              Hawaii.  And then I didn’t hear from him until today.  He said…he

                              put it…he gave the money to somebody and a friend and I said I

                              couldn’t believe he gave it to him.  Excuse me, and then

                              um…(clears throat) he um…said, “Well, if you want to go again, just

                              let me know and I’ll give you the money.” And I was like oh, my

                              God.  I go, “Why didn’t…why didn’t you call me?”  And he said,

 

 

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FREY:                    “What am I gonna say?  You know, what was there for me to say,

                              you know, I just…I gave the money to somebody and they fucked

                              me.”  He was cussing left and right.  It was…it was kind of hilarious

                              because he was so pissed about it.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And, uh…

 

PETERSON:           Did you give him money?

 

FREY:                    No, I didn’t give him any money.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, you hadn’t given him any money?

 

FREY:                    No, no, no, unh-uh.  No, he gave him…he said he gave him $5,000

                              for the tickets for the hotel arrangements and everything and they

                              took all of it (laugh) and there was no…there was no…the

                              um…Fashion Fare Travel is who he thought he…he gave it to this

                              guy and his aunt, and it’s no longer there.  It was…it was a place,

                              but she’s not there.  And I said, “I can’t believe you would even trust

                              or lose such a scam on stuff”, cause he’s done so many scams

                              together, I’ve heard all their stories and it’s funny.  But I just…I

                              laughed.  I said, “I can’t believe you even gave him $5,000 dollars.”

 

PETERSON:           Heh-heh.

 

FREY:                    So it was…it was funny, but so anyway I was glad he called

                              because I was really, you know, upset that he hadn’t called me for

                              so many days and we were supposed to have left on the 28th so…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, that’s crazy.

 

FREY:                    So, Scott…

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    Have you thought of your New Year’s resolution since you talked to

                              me?

 

PETERSON:           Heh-heh-heh.  You’re asking for my resolution again?

 

FREY:                    Huh?

 

PETERSON:           Did you ask for my resolution again?

 

 

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FREY:                    Yes.  (giggle).

 

PETERSON:           Come on now.

 

FREY:                    All right.  Well, I won’t…

 

PETERSON:           Do you recognize that it is 9:00 o’clock here?

 

FREY:                    It’s early.

 

PETERSON:           …in the morning.  I got to be at the hotel at 7:00, just after 7:00

                              and, you know, I set my alarm and I’m glad it woke me up because

                              I’ve wanted to talk to you all of this week.

 

FREY:                    Well, how long has it been?

 

PETERSON:           What’s that?

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           Well, I was just saying that my mind is not functioning at peak

                              ability.

 

FREY:                    So when will you be functioning at peak ability?  (laugh)

 

PETERSON:           Oh, I don’t know not for days now.

 

FREY:                    Ah!

 

PETERSON:           And don’t…don’t discount anything I’ve said.

 

FREY:                    I won’t.

 

PETERSON:           Don’t take it like that, okay?

 

FREY:                    Okay.  Thank you for saying that cause I was gonna say well, wait

                              a minute.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, God, oh, God, no.

 

FREY:                    Huh?

 

PETERSON:           No, everything I’ve said is…is so crazy it’s true.  Our…our

                              relationship will grow and when it’s the right time, slowly it will be

                              very beautiful.

 

 

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FREY:                    So, it will be shortly before my birthday I will see you?

 

PETERSON:           Well, I should be up to see you the 25th or 26th, in-between when I

                              get back to the U.S. and leave for Guadalahara.

 

FREY:                    And the 1st would put us at three weeks?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, or a little longer?

 

FREY:                    Or a little longer?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, a little longer.  It’ll go by fast.

 

FREY:                    I certainly hope so.

 

PETERSON:           Please, please, please let it go by fast.  Tell me, what’s your

                              favorite movie?

 

FREY:                    What’s that?

 

PETERSON:           Your favorite movie?

 

FREY:                    My favorite movie?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, Bubble Boy?

 

FREY:                    That one’s pretty funny.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.  Give me…oh, I’ll take_______

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           Just give me a favorite or I’ll just specify genre.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           Your favorite movie?

 

FREY:                    My favorite movie?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    One that I’ve seen often?  Well, the most recent would be Bubble

                              Boy.  I’m…I’m very fond of the new um…Romeo and Juliet.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, yeah?

 

 

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FREY:                    Yeah.  It took me a while.  The first time I didn’t like it, but um…it

                              grew on me.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    I think I cry every time still when I see it.  Certain scenes just…I…I

                              just can’t help but cry.

 

PETERSON:           Heh-heh-heh laugh)

 

FREY:                    What?  What?

 

PETERSON:           What scenes?

 

FREY:                    Oh, the one…have you seen it?

 

PETERSON:           Um…I don’t think so.

 

FREY:                    Hum, well, when you get to the one when they’re in the water.

 

PETERSON:           But I know the story obviously so…

 

FREY:                    Well, they’re in the swimming pool so that might not be in it and he

                              confesses his love for her and she confesses him…

 

PETERSON:           So it’s a modern remake or?  Okay, I’ll have to see it.

 

FREY:                    That has to be my favorite movie.

 

PETERSON:           Huh?

 

FREY:                    That whole scene and I wish I could quote it, but I can’t.

 

PETERSON:           Okay.

 

FREY:                    But that has to be by far my favorite.  Plus there’s a song in which

                              when they first encounter, the song alone that just begins the whole

                              like, you know, lump in your throat and stuff.  It’s…that…that would

                              have to be one that really gets me I mean every time.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    My favorite movie?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    Um…so yeah.  What…I was gonna ask, what book were…did you

                              finish the book you were reading?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

 

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FREY:                    What book was that?

 

PETERSON:           Jack Cadillac and it was um…letters he had written uh…while

                              hitchhiking across the country.  He’s the author of uh…uh…oh,

                              shoot, what’s that book?  And I think it was…I think it was during

                              the late 60’s he hitchhiked from New York to San Francisco he

                              wrote that book, it’s a famous literature piece.

 

FREY:                    So…

 

PETERSON:           I’m sorry, I can’t think of it right now.

 

FREY:                    That’s okay.  Good book though.  Did you enjoy it?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, it was interesting because it’s at least a…he was not

                              geographically, but mentally interesting to me simply because I

                              never had a prolonged period of freedom like that from

                              responsibility and, you know, and interesting to me and something

                              that you could incorporate into life.

 

FREY:                    Jack Cadillac?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum (affirmative).

 

FREY:                    I’ll have to look into that book.  I’ll have to look into that so I can be

                              on the same page as you.  (giggle)

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)  Yeah.

 

FREY:                    I could hear the song in the background.  Can you…or my hero

                              song by Julio Inglesis song.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, yeah.  (singing)

 

FREY:                    (Humming)  (singing)  You could take my breath away, that’s all I

                              can remember.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, you’ll do very good out there.  Take that mike.

 

FREY:                    No.  They were trying to earlier and I said oh, no, I’ve already done

                              this and it was bad.  (laugh)

 

PETERSON:           No, hopefully you’ll go sing.

 

 

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FREY:                    So you had…I told you earlier my hand was over Shawn’s mouth.

                              She was so bad.  And Doug was like oh, my…he goes, “That was

                              good.” I wish I had took a picture, but nobody had the film.  Well,

                              they have cameras and videotape, but nobody videotaped that.  But

                              my hand was over her mouth that whole song cause I could not

                              listen to the song with her…

 

PETERSON:           (laughing)

 

FREY:                    It was bad.  Oh, she’s all…I go, “Shawn, you sound really bad.”

                              She said, “I know, I’m really wasted.” (laugh)  She doesn’t get

                              wasted very often.  She’s a lightweight, and that’s an

                              understatement.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.  How’re you doing?

 

FREY:                    I mean I’ve drank three drinks, three cocktails and uh…almost four

                              actually.  (laugh)  So I’m very…I think I’m very clear-minded

                              though.  I think I’m, you know, at least I’ll ask you, am I com…am I

                              slurring?

 

PETERSON:           No, no, you sound fine.

 

FREY:                    I guess I was just so excited, you know, I…I…the anticipation to

                              hear from you was just, you know…

 

PETERSON:           Oh!

 

FREY:                    …I was just praying that…I was like oh, you know, God please let

                              this phone call go through.

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    And like all I ask is 20 minutes, please that’s it.

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    I said anything more than that will be a blessing.

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    And so it truly is that because I don’t know, it’s been so frustrating

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

 

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FREY:                    You know, I’m like I’m thankful I get to hear from you because at

                              least I know you’re thinking of me and you’re calling to say

                              goodnight and…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    …and uh…so it’s, you know, it’s frustrating to hear all this static and

                              no connection and, you know, and then to hear it clear, but still not

                              be able to hear anything.  And then it’s static in here, you know,

                              it…so I’m…

 

PETERSON:           Could you hear me the last time I called?

 

FREY:                    I heard you, uh-hum.  I was just like, you know, the anticipation

                              after that like, you know, to be able…and it’s like, you know, like I

                              said I was praying that I could talk to you and be able to have a

                              conversation cause it’s just been so frustrating not, you know.  It’s

                              just been so stressful and…and I haven’t been able to talk to you

                              and it’s been so…not so long, but I mean certainly long enough

                              and, you know, that I get to see you.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And it’s been hard.

 

PETERSON:           Definitely.  Well, thank you, that’s nice of you.

 

FREY:                    You know, I’m thankful that it’s been my…my days have been so

                              busy and crazy with family and then work and, you know, all that

                              that I’ve at least been occupied but thankful to be around when you

                              call.  It’s just…it’s just amazing how…how, you know, my days go.

                              Like I said when I first started I said, you know, if I didn’t move into

                              my old office I wouldn’t have had the time or opportunity to have

                              spent with you.

 

PETERSON:           Right.

 

FREY:                    And I’ve been thankful for that and…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, we’re lucky.

 

FREY:                    You know, and just trying to stay positive and…and go to church.  I

                              was gonna say, you know, what they had talked about just, you

                              know, what we had talked about or how I was saying I had a

                              hard…you know, things I was having a hard time with trust with you

 

 

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FREY:                    and everything, you know.  Sunday so many things were cleared in

                              my mind and to me that really, you know, I just turned everything

                              over and kept that in mind to turn over things to God and that…that

                              uh…you know, those things are my past and, you know, all that’s

                              important is, you know, right now in this relationship that I have with

                              you and my daughter.  I mean first and foremost my daughter.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, of course.

 

FREY:                    And my, you know, getting my business started and, you know, just

                              so happy, I mean I’m happy.  I mean it’s…like I said it’s been really

                              hard dealing with, you know, you being gone and having all these

                              emotions and feelings and…

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    …and just that anticipation when I get to, you know, spend that time

                              with you.  It’s just um…been very hard.

 

PETERSON:           I’m sorry it’s been hard.

 

FREY:                    You know, and finally to get to, you know, talk to you is like God,

                              I’m not gonna let this go until we, you know, or when I get…even

                              when I’m able to finally talk to you I just want to, you know, I can’t

                              leave for a while, I want to hear all these things you’ve though

                              about.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           No, I see what you mean ____________ I don’t know it’s just a sigh

                              of contentment or and happiness and special.  Thank you.  You’re

                              so special.  Amber?

 

FREY:                    Yes, I’m here.

 

PETERSON:           You’re so special. ____________(inaudible)  Now, I want you to go

                              back to that party and sing.

 

FREY:                    What do you want me to sing?

 

 

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PETERSON:           Whatever you need to hear that sound good…

 

FREY:                    Well, you didn’t even ask what I was wearing tonight?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, I was going to though.

 

FREY:                    Were you?

 

PETERSON:           Honestly I was, but then you  some very big questions.  So

                              actually right after that I had planned to ask what you’re wearing

                              and what you sang.  What do you have on?

 

FREY:                    Well, first it’s because I haven’t been able to talk to you.  I wanted

                              to be able to express all these things before, you know, um…I had

                              some…some beer before so I keep…so excuse me.

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    Um…what I’m wearing, I’ll go to that.  I’m wearing black pants,

                              which kind of have a texture…well, they’re kind of shiny and they

                              have a leopard print but it’s on black.

 

PETERSON:           Oooh!

 

FREY:                    Yeah, they’re pretty sexy.  (giggling)  And I’m wearing a…it’s kind of

                              a red but almost a magenta pink, but it looks like foil on a shirt.

 

PETERSON:           Oooh!

 

FREY:                    Yes, it’s very sexy too.  And I have beads like um…they’re not

                              beads and they’re not rhinestones, but they’re metal things around

                              the sleeves and the neck collar.  And it has some very…well,

                              remember when I saw you on Monday.  Well, it was the first

                              Monday after you came back from Alaska, do you remember what I

                              was wearing?

 

PETERSON:           Hum, no I’m sorry.

 

FREY:                    Well, I was wearing these very tall red boots and a long jean skirt.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, okay.

 

FREY:                    Well, I’m wearing those boots, that’s what I was getting at, which

                              you didn’t see them very long because I went in and changed

                              before we went on our hiking trip to Squaw’s Valley or Squaw

                              Valley or no, Squaw’s Valley.

 

 

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PETERSON:           Are the pants tucked in your boots?

 

FREY:                    Well, it was jeans or it was a jean…a long jean skirt so I didn’t…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I know, but you have the boots on now?

 

FREY:                    I have the boots on now and…

 

PETERSON:           And these black leopardy pants.  Are…are the pants tucked in the

                              boots?

 

FREY:                    They’re…no, my pants are over the boots.

 

PETERSON:           Okay.

 

FREY:                    That would be very out of style.

 

PETERSON:           So the pants aren’t skin tight?

 

FREY:                    Yes, they are.

 

PETERSON:           Oh, they are?

 

FREY:                    They’re pretty tight except they’re a boot cut.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    But they are form fitting on the top.  They are, but they’re stretchy.

                              It’s just…it’s a different material.  They look leather, but they have a

                              leopard-looking print, but it’s all black.  Does that make sense?

 

PETERSON:           Got ya, yeah.

 

FREY:                    So they’re pretty sexy, the shirt is nice.

 

PETERSON:           I’ll have to check these things out.

 

FREY:                    Hum?

 

PETERSON:           I’ll have to check those out.

 

FREY:                    Yeah, maybe uh…maybe for my birthday or something.  I don’t

                              know what we…you know, I don’t know.  I mean it’s coming around

                              the corner.  I mean shall we plan something now for that?  Do you

                              have anything in mind?

 

 

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PETERSON:           Well, let me take care of it.

 

FREY:                    You’re gonna take care of it?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum (affirmative).  I’ll let you know the schedule.

 

FREY:                    You’ll what?

 

PETERSON:           I’ll let you know a schedule.  I mean I’ll tell you when to be free.

 

FREY:                    Well, maybe you won’t want me to wear these, maybe you’ll want

                              me to wear something else.

 

PETERSON:           I’ll let you know.

 

FREY:                    Okay.  Gosh, that’s just…I mean at the same time, I mean the

                              anticipation’s there, but the other time I’m gonna be 28.  (giggle)  I

                              mean I’m looking…I’m certainly looking forward to my 30’s so

                              I…I’m probably one of the few that will say that.

 

PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    But I was just talking about that tonight.  I said, you know, I’m

                              actually really looking forward to my 30’s cause, you know, I see it

                              as being a good thing.  (giggle)

 

PETERSON:           Heh-heh, you’re cute.  (laugh)

 

FREY:                    You know, ending my 20’s on a positive note and things are going

                              well.  You know, so many things, areas in my life that, you know,

                              30’s can only get better, right?

 

PETERSON:           Right.

 

FREY:                    Right?  They’re getting better for you, you met me.

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum, that’s right.

 

FREY:                    You’ve certainly lived 30, right?

 

PETERSON:           Yes, I’m old.

 

FREY:                    You’re not old.  You’re so young still.  People…I was watching a

                              program at uh…today and it was talking about um…it was some

                              documentary or something about a woman, but they were like in

                              their 80’s.  So I caught a glimpse of that um…it was just…it was

 

 

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FREY:                    just interesting, you know, just some women and, you know, still

                              feeling as if they were, you know, in their 20’s.  But it only got

                              better.  So it was a positive note that…that, you know…30 though, I

                              mean look at your life span, Scott.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, I’m about mid-life.

 

FREY:                    You’re not even at mid-life.

 

PETERSON:           I don’t know.  I think I’m hitting mid-life.

 

FREY:                    Why do you think you’re hitting mid-life?

 

PETERSON:           Mid-life.

 

FREY:                    I know, why do you think you’re hitting mid-life?

 

PETERSON:           Uh…because I think I’ll physically be crippled at 60.

 

FREY:                    Why would you think that?

 

PETERSON:           Just cause I am.  Come on.

 

FREY:                    You’re in great shape.  You have an awesome body.

 

PETERSON:           My knees are cracking.

 

FREY:                    That’s nothing.  My knees crack.  That’s nothing.

 

PETERSON:           I just like to joke about it.

 

FREY:                    Oh, you just like to joke about me, it makes you feel better, huh?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, you know how I am.  Self-deprecation is a constant thing with

                              me.

 

FREY:                    Well, you…you know my remark on that, right?

 

PETERSON:           I have a big enough ego that it doesn’t matter.

 

FREY:                    (laugh)  But you know my remark on that, right?

 

PETERSON:           I do.  I do.  Just say thank you.

 

FREY:                    That’s right.  You say thank you when you’re complimented.

 

 

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PETERSON:           (laugh)

 

FREY:                    It doesn’t mean you have a big head, that means that you’re

                              accepting of the compliment.

 

PETERSON:           That is one of your most appealing qualities to me.

 

FREY:                    But that’s one thing to say thank you is probably harder than to

                              deny it.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, it is.  Did you hear me, one of the most appealing qualities of

                              you to me is?

 

FREY:                    Hum, so I have to laugh when you say this so Scott…

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum.

 

FREY:                    So tell me, do you think I’m intelligent?

 

PETERSON:           Hum, yeah, but that wasn’t the quality I was thinking of.  Do you

                              know what the quality was that I’m thinking of now?  Hum?

 

FREY:                    No, tell me.

 

PETERSON:           Self-esteem.

 

FREY:                    Me?

 

PETERSON:           Uh-hum (affirmative).

 

FREY:                    How’s that?

 

PETERSON:           You have good self-esteem and that’s difficult to find in people.

 

FREY:                    Well, that’s something…

 

PETERSON:           That makes you incredibly appealing and sexy to me.

 

FREY:                    You know, you’ve mentioned…you have mentioned that a couple of

                              times to me when we were getting ready for that formal on that

                              Saturday, December…when was that, December…?

 

PETERSON:           Yes, that Saturday, I don’t know the date, but yeah, I told you that.

 

 

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FREY:                    I think yeah, you were just like yeah, you had commented on that.

                              I…I um…that’s something I’ve had to work very hard on, Scott.

                              You know, that’s not something that came to me easily.

 

PETERSON:           No, it’s when it comes so…it’s even more important, more

                              appealing.

 

FREY:                    I would agree with that because it has been a very hard thing for

                              me to overcome.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    And, you know, I’m finally, you know, secure with myself and

                              confident and…and uh…it hasn’t…it hasn’t been easy, it’s been

                              very hard.

 

PETERSON:           You’ve done a great job.

 

FREY:                    Thanks.  So…

 

PETERSON:           So remember how special you are, huh?

 

FREY:                    I get reminded every so often.

 

PETERSON:           I bet.

 

FREY:                    It’s, you know, it doesn’t mean it’s any easier though, but I get

                              reminded every so often.

 

PETERSON:           You deserve it.

 

FREY:                    (whispering)  I deserve a lot of things.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    But, you know, everything in it’s time (starting to cry)

 

PETERSON:           You’re fine.  Just let it come to you.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           It’ll come to you, sweetie.

 

FREY:                    There’s always been something…(crying)  I’m sorry.

 

PETERSON:           That’s okay.  Much to share.

 

 

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FREY:                    (crying)  There’s always been something that I always keep to the

                              surface is everything in it’s time and everything in it’s time serves a

                              purpose.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    I’m sorry.

 

PETERSON:           No, God, don’t ever say that.  Don’t ever say you’re sorry for

                              sharing.

 

FREY:                    (crying)

 

PETERSON:           You always…

 

FREY:                    What?

 

PETERSON:           I’m here for you.

 

FREY:                    What was that?

 

PETERSON:           I’m here for you.

 

FREY:                    (sigh)  I wish you were.

 

PETERSON:           But I am and I will be.

 

FREY:                    (sniff)  (crying)  Smearing my mascara down my face (giggle)

 

PETERSON:           Oh, please, you’re so lovely.  It’s unreal.

 

FREY:                    Okay.

 

PETERSON:           You’ve truly…

 

FREY:                    Huh?

 

PETERSON:           You’ve truly made yourself uh…you know, you’re just an amazing

                              woman.  And I know you know that.  And never say you’re sorry for

                              sharing.

 

FREY:                    (crying)  Oh, my goodness.  I’m all right.

 

PETERSON:           You’re wonderful.

 

 

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FREY:                    I’m drinking a Guiness Extra Stout on top of my three _______ over

                              cranberry with a lime twist.

 

PETERSON:           You’re having breakfast.

 

FREY:                    Well, that’s a good way to look at it, huh?  (giggle)  (sniff)  Oh! So

                              when do I get to hear from you again, Scott?

 

PETERSON:           I’ll call when it’s my nighttime.

 

FREY:                    Yeah?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    When’s your nighttime?

 

PETERSON:           What’s that?

 

FREY:                    When’s your nighttime?

 

PETERSON:           About 9 hours difference.  I’ll take the train late tonight from here to

                              Brussels.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           Okay.

 

FREY:                    And then?

 

PETERSON:           And then I’ll be in Brussels for at least four days.

 

FREY:                    Are things going okay there?

 

PETERSON:           Well, work hasn’t started yet.  It’ll start tomorrow.  Not tomorrow, but

                              yeah, tomorrow’s the 2nd.

 

FREY:                    The 2nd so Thursday?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    So who’s to say what’s to come, huh?  It could be intense days for

                              you?

 

PETERSON:           I’m sorry, I didn’t understand.

 

 

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FREY:                    I said well, it hasn’t started for you so your days could be intense

                              long days with these meetings?

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, probably.  Yeah, probably.

 

FREY:                    You were saying you were gonna discuss financial stuff and…

 

PETERSON:           Yeah, just going over business plans.

 

FREY:                    So…

 

PETERSON:           That kind of stuff.

 

FREY:                    So your nighttime so I could, you know, somewhat have an idea

                              when to expect to hear from you.  I don’t know when your nighttime

                              is.

 

PETERSON:           Well, whatever time difference.

 

FREY:                    So all I’m saying is I don’t know when you go to sleep?

 

PETERSON:           Oh, probably midnight or 1:00.

 

FREY:                    So that would be…

 

PETERSON:           3:00 or 4:00 your time.  And then uh…let’s see, if you go to bed at

                              9:00, that’s 6:00 o’clock my time.

 

FREY:                    Well, I don’t usually go to bed till 11:00.

 

PETERSON:           Yeah.

 

FREY:                    So 8:00 your time.

 

PETERSON:           Okay.  I might be up by then so I may call and we can share an

                              evening or two.  I’d like to talk to you at that time.

 

FREY:                    I guess I

 

PETERSON:           To me it’s the most intimate time.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.  The most intimate time because?

 

 

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PETERSON:           Just because of the time of day.  Our…our psyches are, you know,

                              kinda relaxed and you are focused on relationships as opposed to

                              getting up in the morning and doing things or, you know, going to

                              pick up the dry cleaning, things like that.

 

FREY:                    So oh, I don’t…I don’t have my schedule in front of me.  I know

                              Friday I have, you know, schedulings here and there, but, you

                              know, I…I always say most certainly leave me a message.  You

                              know, I enjoy getting…if I can’t talk to you at least to hear a

                              message from you is always wonderful.

 

PETERSON:           I’ll always leave one when I call.

 

FREY:                    Um…

 

PETERSON:           Okay?

 

FREY:                    Thank you.

 

PETERSON:           Thank you.  Now…

 

FREY:                    Yes.

 

PETERSON:           …you go back to that party.

 

FREY:                    Okay.

 

PETERSON:           And our relationship will grow.

 

FREY:                    And what?

 

PETERSON:           Okay.  Our relationship…

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           …it will grow.

 

FREY:                    Uh-hum.

 

PETERSON:           Have confidence in that.

 

FREY:                    Okay.

 

PETERSON:           And know how beautiful you are.

 

FREY:                    Yes.

 

 

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PETERSON:           Okay, sweetie?

 

FREY:                    Yes.

 

PETERSON:           Goodnight.

 

FREY:                    Goodnight.